Keto VIP so much more information out there that it didn't have access to until I started reading books what was it about Bernie Browns daring greatly that really resonated for you it was the guilt in the shame living a life of surrounded by guilt and shame and her showing me like the light at the end of the tunnel of how to get out of it it really gave me hope and courage to own my story and talk about it and that's you know even when I read her book you know before episode 100 happened which is where I went public with my story that was about two years of reading her book over and over again it wasn't like overnight like boom I'm gonna I'm gonna tell everybody about this it took me a while to get to a place where I was okay emotionally and spiritually to share my story it wasn't just like I think Britney talks about this there's difference between over sharing and being vulnerable right and I feel like the difference for me was being ready